Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Sorry I haven't been blogging as much as I would like to. Been caught up with work and clearing from University. Good news and bad news abounds.
Good news; I GOT THE JOB. Yes dolls, momma is a lucky camper. Celebration in due course but for now am letting it sink in. Making a strict budget to follow. I don't want to waste a single dime.:)
Bad news; am slowly slipping into a serious depression(God, am tired of these muzungu situations!) Anyhow, for as long as I remember, I have had strong to mild issues with my body. There was a time I couldn't eat at all cause I couldn't fathom the idea of gaining weight.(I fainted on several occasions) And then when that passed, i had to deal with the severe acne that attacked my face. But for a while now, all that has been forgotten. For the past few months I have comfortable in my skin. I glowed with happiness and love all thanks to the boy. I felt beautiful for once. But last week, the boy expressed that I was slowly but surely letting myself go. I quote,"you are losing it!" He also recommended I cleanse and watch my weight. And before I knew it, the dark cloud of unhappiness I had left behind when I was a teenager has slowly come back into my life to overshadow any sort of sunshine that might be directed my way. I haven't gone out at all this weekend. I spent it indoors, applying an aloe Vera face mask and checking my face every hour. I also haven't eaten anything but apples. Fortunately, I have decided am going to do this for me, not for anyone else. So I have set up goals and how am planning to achieve them.
Goal 1:To drop from the size 6 I currently am back to a size 4. For this am going to diet and exercise as well but mainly diet seeing as am lazy. I have given up breakfast and supper and lunch will be just vegetables.
Goal 2:To have a smooth acne free skin. I am going to go for facials every week as opposed to just twice a month. Avoid anything fried. Drink at least a litre of juice a day(I can't drink water..it's too eeeww!) Keep to my regime of cleansing, toning and moisturizing every morning and evening. Stay away from alcohol, it is the devil!
Goal 3:To look fashionable everyday. Clean out my wardrobe of anything old and tacky that I don't or should not wear anymore. Purchase a good item of clothing every month. on that note, I need more dresses!
Goal 4: Upgrade underwear. Make a purchase of matching bra and panties(according to my male friends..it's essential they match) every month. I shall not wear cheap bad materialed under wear again. I shall invest in good quality.
That's all I've managed to come up with thus far. :( AM.NOT.HAPPY
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
I have gained 12kg (25 pounds!! Gasp!)
*Quietly weeps...heads to corner and slits wrist*
I have dropped out of Eaccos. I hate the tutor. I now have to content with my level 1 certificate.
I made a boo boo at work...seriously, this day can't get any worse! Am going home straight from here. I don't want to tempt fate into being cruel any further.
Monday, October 25, 2010
So I have been asking around about sex and I landed on this hot cake of a topic.
What do you guys think about sex without a condom? According to one of my friends (male, I need to specify) thinks you have not had sex until it is without a condom. Apparently, sex with a condom is advanced masturbation! Then I remembered an advert that was on TV awhile ago about a man who had refused to use condoms. His reason was why would one eat a sweet while the wrapper is still on. I was baffled. Do people no longer fear AIDS and other STI's? Unplanned pregnancies? Have we gotten so comfortable with the idea of ARV's and cocktails of other drugs as well as abortions?
And whose responsibility is that the there is a condom during proceedings? Is it the girl, the boy? It's a jungle out here. Am thinking we as women should make it our duty that there's an "umbrella" cause am sure the effects of unprotected sex affect us the worst. But then the story of the girl who was dumped because her fiance thought she was promiscuous for having condoms in her bag comes to mind. What to do? Am going to ask the boy about this.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Most of you are going to hate on me after this post. I have realised that sex has always been a taboo of sorts in Uganda. There's a lot of campaigns about HIV/AIDS and all that but no one really talks about sex (the exception being the red rug of course but one wouldn't even call that a reliable source seeing as most of their articles are unashamedly ripped off the Internet.)
Why? You ask am I delving into such a dirty shameful topic (see, you even think it's dirty!) Well, as I was talking with a couple of girlfriends recently, one confessed to having painful sex. And when she said this, 2 other girls said they were going through the same thing. I was agape in shock. So I asked, how long has this being going on? They said forever, ever since they had started having sex. Have you told your respective partners about this? No, they all said. Jesus, I.WAS.IN.SHOCK! Why in the world would you undress and have sex with someone but still be unable to talk to this same person about it.Why,why,why?
By the way all these three women have been to the best of schools, come from relatively upper middle class families and watch E! So you can imagine my shock. So I ask them if any of them have talked to anyone prior to this about this problem. Again, same answer no. Lord have mercy on me..I wanted to get up and smack them till they woke up and joined me in the year 2010!
Since then I have been wondering, why do we as a people(Ugandans) have this attitude towards sex? Is it our culture, is it religion? Am reading about that...shall surely get back to you on that.
As for my friends with the painful sex. I have 3 pieces of advice. Firstly, go see a gynaecologist( I DO NOT MEAN A GENERAL DOCTOR HERE) and if he finds that all is OK,talk to your man. Dude might be pumping away with all his might interpreting your screams of pain as those of pleasure yet poor girl you're dying beneath him. Lastly and most importantly, find out what works for you...and yes I mean find some me time and touch yourself...no your not going to hell! It will do you a world of good. You'll thank me later.
On that note, am looking into buying a rabbit!(I.AM.NOT.ASHAMED) I don't know where I can find one here though and all my friends abroad are too cowardly to walk into a sex shop(see what am saying, they took the attitude [read maalo] with them to outside countries!) So if one of you dolls can be so kind as to point me in the right direction, I will be grateful.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
For all my being informed and being online each day, I only just recently saw Ssempa's (the "Pastor") eat da poo poo YouTube video (am not including a link for you dolls, I will not add to the virality of that video). I was first amused..then horrified. Why,why,why is this man so ignorant so much so that he wants to advertise the fact. I have always stayed away from this topic because this blog is not a social commentary, it's just a log of my life. But this has finally infuriated me enough to write about it because this affects my life.
One of my closest friends is gay. He came out to me about 2 years ago. His reason, apparently am liberal thinking(according to him). I was appalled. I was shocked. I was in denial. But as I took a taxi home that night, I thought who am I to judge him, am not God. I read the Bible and it clearly condemns homosexuality but this is the same Bible in which the same God killed thousands upon thousands of Egyptian first born CHILDREN!(Discussion for another day) So I choose not to judge him. He is a wonderful person and the fact that he's gay does not affect his personality in any way.
But on to the real reason for this post. When he came out to me,he was dating a lovely young unsuspecting girl. I couldn't have this. Of course I understood why he was doing this, he is straight acting. But if he was going to lead a certain lifestyle, he was not allowed to use anyone to cover for him as long as he was my friend. So I managed to convince him to leave her. Am sure this was a kinder fate than finding out her dear beloved was screwing dudes on the side.
Before he came out to me , I thought they were like 10 gay men in kampala(Yes loves,am naive like that sometimes) But since then I have found out that no,they are not 10...they are not 100 either, they are thousands. They are my friends,my acquaintances,my relatives, my workmates. They are all around me. From all walks of life,the very rich to the dirt poor, the expatriate to the school teacher. And no, they are not deviants,they are normal people like me and you.
But what frightened me the most, is that alarmingly a good number of them are boyfriends to women, husbands to women and fiances to women. Yes, am talking to you wife out there. African americans have a term for this, they are men on the down low! Yes people, men(and such a big number of them you would not sleep well if you found out how many) are on the down low. And I don't blame them, I would also do the same in their position. But then when I think about my friends, my sister, my aunts, even my unconceived girls...am horrified of the thought that one of them might end up with men like this. And who do I blame for this..the Martin Ssempa's of this world.
So to Mr Ssempa (am hoping he reads this someday) I ask, one day your daughter(am assuming he has one) will bring a man home as her husband, and funny enough this man will be a closeted homosexual(yes, those people who eat da poo poo albeit in hiding). Who will you blame? The people you have stupidly brain washed to hate him so much so he has to hide what he truly is, the cruel government policies that you supported so vibrantly that have forced him into acting like he has a disease he should be ashamed of, the God you serve for playing such a cruel and nasty joke on you, or you for your sheer and plain ignorance and stupidity?
Mr Ssempa, whatever your doing now is going to come back to bite you in the ass. (Pun seriously not intended!)
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Of course the geek in me could not stay away for long. Am learning high level Unix networking and to get started I need to know how the X windows system works and how to use it. According to this wikipedia article, X windows is a computer software system and network protocol that provides a graphical user interface for networked computers. Pretty neat, huh! Well, I found a really good introductory tutorial here for newbies like me (though I can't really call myself that anymore having finished LPI1). Enjoy.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Am going on a hiatus for I don't know how long. Reasons are am going to do my LPI level one exams and I need to fully focus on that. Also, I need to get my house in order ;physically, spiritually and most of all emotionally. Finally, I feel like doing a major overhaul to the way I look. Someone(a really dear wise friend) once said that self esteem is not only feeling comfortable in your skin, it's also knowing how you want to look and investing considerable effort in achieving that look. I have always found my eye colour boring so that's one area am looking to improve. Spartukuss, you want to know who I am. Look for the only (I think)hazel-green eyed female techie in Kampala.
Also, am getting a tattoo(don't know what yet).
Missing you already my loves, don't do what I wouldn't do(though that's really little!).
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Just broke (why do they say broke..sounds so physical! But I guess it is a physical activity) my virginity quite recently(or not depending on how you look at it, been almost a year now). So I was looking for a website(which funny enough is the reason for this post) which can help other virgins break(for lack of a better word) their own virginity. Now I know all y'all are scampering throught the words(Pervs!) trying to get to the juicy bits.
Well, my first time was not easy at all. I frankly did not know what I was doing and my hands were all over the place but I had a good guide. She eased me into the whole process! Unfortunately,I know people like her are rare so here's a website to help all ye virgins out there. http://www.linuxvirgins.com/index.html
Monday, August 2, 2010
I have an interview today, scared shit less! At the moment, I really can't regurgitate anything sensible so just decide to write you a manual. IT Barbie's guide to preparing for interviews. Here goes;
1. Read, read and read and then some more. No use going for the damn thing if you don't know anything.
2. Make sure you know the place the interview is going to be carried out. If you get lost prior to getting there, this will just throw you off hence fail.
3. Dress up. And don't take this lightly this is the deal breaker..at least for me. Don't be tacky. Don't be flashy. Be classy.
3(b) It never hurt to wear good lingerie(underwear for men). This is your shield people! So you can have a smug look when anyone looks at you cause you're thinking.."am effing hot from head to toe."
4.Comb your hair. Tres tres importante. Hair says alot about you(Don't go believing that India Arie crap..she only sang that to sell records. She didn't really mean it!)
5. The most important one of all. Act as if you already have the job. Ever heard of fake it till you make it. This is it right here.
Wish me luck dolls,
Do check out the series as well. Billie Piper does Belle justice. Love her.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Just turned 22 a week ago. Been thinking about what direction my life should take and I found this amazing verse from the bible(Am not religious at all trust me!!) But I feel it truly defines what kind of woman I would like to be. So here goes;
The Proverbs 31 Woman :
Her character as a wife
An excellent wife, who can find?For her worth is far above jewels.
(rare, precious).The heart of her husband trusts in her,And he will have no lack of gain.
(trustworthy).She does him good and not evil All the days of her life(kind).
Her Devotion as a homemaker
She looks for wool and flax And works with her hands in delight(works joyfully).
She is like merchant ships; She brings her food from afar(goes extra mile to get choicest goods).
She rises also while it is still night And gives food to her household And portions to her maidens(disciplined).
She considers a field and buys it; From her earnings she plants a vineyard(enterprising, prudent with money).
She girds herself with strength And makes her arms strong (energetic).
She senses that her gain is good;Her lamp does not go out at night(good steward).
She stretches out her hands to the distaff,And her hands grasp the spindle. (diligent)
Her Generosity as a Neighbour
She extends her hand to the poor,And she stretches out her hands to the needy(compassionate, generous)
Her Devotions as a Homemaker
She is not afraid of the snow for her household,For all her household are clothed with scarlet.
She makes coverings for herself; Her clothing is fine linen and purple (elegant)
Her husband is known in the gates,When he sits among the elders of the land(influential)
She makes linen garments and sells them,And supplies belts to the tradesmen(industrious)
Her Influences as a Teacher
Strength and dignity are her clothing,And she smiles at the future(poised)
She opens her mouth in wisdom,And the teaching of kindness is on her tongue(wise)
Her effectiveness as a Mother
She looks well to the ways of her household,And does not eat the bread of idleness(manages her home)
Her children rise up and bless her;Her husband also, and he praises her, saying:(praiseworthy)"Many daughters have done nobly,But you excel them all." (distinguished)
Her excellence as a Person
Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain,But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.
Give her the product of her hands,And let her works praise her in the gates(honored)
~ Proverbs 31:10-31
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
It's been awhile since I last blogged and trust me contrary to popular belief it's not about a lack of things to blog about,it's just that too much has been happening and I got caught up in it all. So here are the updates;
Firstly, am still a temp (sucks, right?! I know) but a happy temp nonetheless. Well, there's a lot of bottlenecks to my becoming permanent and it's taking awhile to remove them. Am happy cause all my friends are helplessly pounding the streets of kampala in search for jobs where they'll pay them a fraction of what I earn as a temp!! Forgive me,I have to gloat.
Secondly, I finally got round to actually signing up for linux training. I gave up trying to learn it on my own. I wont lie, it's boring. so now everyday from 6pm to 9pm am in a little class east of this town trying to get my open source on! I fully intend to finish and actually do the LPI exams (God forbid this goes down the ORACLE way, the certification I trained for but didn't actually do the exams for!)
Thirdly, no thirdly..same ol same ol. No wait ..there is a third. I finally got round to actually getting a business partner and we are starting our very own computer company. We want to focus on network solutions but since we're just starting out, we're beginning with servicing contracts. Momma is indeed a hustler!
Oh and lastlty...unfortunately..i grew older..been on this earth for 22 years. Have nothing to show for it though! Oh and I survived the effin blast. Scared about where this country is headed. just have to wait and see. The bit about the fat lady...I've gained an enormous amount of weight..I feel fat!! Not happy about that one. :(
Thursday, May 20, 2010
My brief sojourn into extreme reading that led to my brief abandonment of you ,my loves has ended(Mercifully!) I am now in that awkward phase between college and the real life(whatever that is).
A lot is going at the moment(am a fire starter, baby). Firstly,am trying to decide which direction my life is going to take and it is not easy. I have a lot of ideas storming my head on a regular and it is becoming to hard to figure out which is reasonable,uber cool or down right unreasonable. All I know is the thought of not reading for an exam for at least a year has got me on an endomorphin high!
On the down side, I have just been made to realize that life can be tough in this dirt poor but virginal and full of promise country. Salary is not enough to even get by. Most of the people I thought had it all are apparently living their "african dream" on loans. A very scary thought. But am happy I have realized this early enough. My inner hustler has been reborn and re-baptized..back with a vengeance!
Watch out people...AM GOING TO CONQUER THE WORLD.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
To relinquish all childish expectations and live joyfully in the world as it is --not as I wish or imagine it to be,
To be free of the always craven and ever-craving ego,
To be released from the endless hungers of the body,
To see God in others,
To see God in everything,
To die without death and merge my consciousness into the cosmic sea of bliss from which I came,
To surrender my heart to love,
This is my soul's journey.
Monday, April 19, 2010
1. Hackers are not consumer lemmings – As large institutions continue to brainwash American citizens into becoming slaves to the systems they’ve created; hackers know that there is a life outside these systems of user dependence, a better life. Institutional dependence is literally killing us. Our dependence on the institutional food system has left us disease ridden and physically incapable. Dependence on western medical systems is bankrupting us. Our two major political parties both preach institutional dependence; one insists dependence on big government institutions, the other dependence on big corporate institutions. Hackers preach self and small community dependence. i.e. independence.
2. Hackers avoid what I call “The Knowledge Trap ” – Our education system is mostly about teaching people what to think, not how to think. This is true from kindergarten through undergrad. Hackers are more focused on skills than knowledge, and people with skills survive. Most importantly it’s attitude that make hackers effective. Knowledge is least important because they have the skills to get the knowledge they need when necessary. And their independent attitude makes them resistant to appeals to authority.
3. Hackers can hack anything – They are not just limited to computers and electronics. They can plant vegetables and by doing so hack the food distribution system. They can install solar panels on their homes and hack the energy grid. They easily shake the fear that advertisers and politicians instill in mainstream society’s psyche. Big institutional systems don’t faze hackers, they can see beyond them.
4. Hackers favor open systems – Hackers use and favor open non-controlling tools and systems. They support software freedom, and this ensures that non-restricted tools will be available to hackers for generations to come.
I’m sure there are many more reasons to encourage the next generation to embrace hacking. Feel free to add your reasons as comments. Happy Hacking!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
I started looking around at once for another computer, one on which I could make all the mistakes I needed to without endangering my original box, and soon got the eMachine. And here's the measure of my lack of sophistication at the time: the machine had been wiped, and I was suddenly aware I didn't know how to do anything at all with it. I did know I couldn't even get the DVD into it unless the power was on, so I pushed the button.
Almost from that moment on, there was little doubt what to do next.
Success!Find the machine's BIOS boot order, choose DVD drive, let it do its thing. Don't hesitate, choose Install to Hard Drive, and answer some simple questions (go ahead, use the whole drive), then bite my nails while the drive grinds and whirs, incomprehensible messages appear and vanish, and a great blackness descends. I know to wait (I've read the books, I know it takes a while), and suddenly there it is! Ubuntu 8.10! I installed it! Well, it really installed itself, I just sort of facilitated it a bit.
For the next few days I explored the rich stew of programs that were either installed or offered via the Synaptic Package Manager and I even -- gingerly -- my toes in the waters of the terminal. Not to DO anything at first, just to read some man pages, but it gave me the sense of how to get into and out of that powerful area. It all went so smoothly, at first I was almost disappointed at the lack of challenges. Of course those came along in due time, but fortunately not until I was better prepared to face them.
FUDcast BackfiresI'd not been at it very long when I came across an article by Lance Ulanoff titled Diary of a Linux Virgin. I am really glad I had already done my own installation, because I might otherwise never have done it at all.
You see, Mr. Ulanoff was apparently intent on generating FUD in support of his publication's proprietary-system advertisers like Microsoft and Apple. He described his experience at installing Ubuntu 8.10 as if it were the most computer-threatening, nerve-wracking, brain-challenging experience of his life. Zapped computer. Several required reinstalls of Windows XP Pro (which he made sure to say he tossed off quickly with his indominatble expertise). Finally, with a lot of help from experts both in his office and online, he heroically managed to get it up and running. There was no account of what he actually DID with it.
And here's a thing for all Linux fans to take into account: the working (read "paid") reviewers derive their income from corporations that advertise in the publications for which they write. How likely is it for them to heap praise on a system that offers a viable, inexpensive, and sometimes superior product to the ones which are the ultimate source of their pay?
Most of us know this already. We gripe a bit, grumble, comment prolifically on their articles, and let it go at that. But what about all the people who haven't yet tried Linux -- or even heard of it? Is their only source of information the Fudcasts of the advertising-driven press? And to put it in the bluntest possible terms, how the heck is Linux going to grow additional market share if it doesn't quit preaching to the choir and start marketing to The Public? That means writing about Linux in a way that assumes the reader is a very intelligent but severely underinformed user of a computer who is interested in learning more about it. I'll probably get flamed for the following, but even offering Linux as simply an inexpensive potential hobby could bring a whole lot of people close enough that they'd soon be won over.
Herd of LinuxesOkay, I lied in the title of this article, to compare it to the Ulanoff piece. I didn't say much about my first year. What the whole year really amounted to is that right now I'm up to three computers running a bunch of distros to see which I like best in the long run.
At the moment I have Ubuntus 9.04 and 9.10, openSUSE 11.2, and Mandriva 2010 on computers, with Knoppix 6.2 on a thumbdrive and DSL and a beta of TinyMe on CDs. Windows XP remains in double-boot on my original Compaq, but has been permanently disconnected from the internet to serve, for the present, as my version of clod storage (no, I didn't misspell that). I am an unabashed Linux fan, still a beginner but learning fast. I've had my share of temporary disasters and unbootable systems, but nothing my well-used CD of Parted Magic didn't get me out of. I compare that to what it would have been like if I were still a standard Windows victim way off in my remote little mountainside home!
Just a year ago -- April 21, 2009 to be exact -- I installed a Linux distribution. I installed it from a DVD of Ubuntu 8.10, Intrepid Ibex, that came with an issue of Linux Pro magazine I bought from a news stand, and I put it on a hand-me-down eMachine with 384MB RAM (the other 128MB being dedicated graphics). It was the first time I had ever installed an operating system. In fact, it was the first time I had ever installed anything at all, anytime, anywhere. I had always just called for (and paid for) professional help from a neighbor who extended me rates more favorable than his enterprise customers paid. Raised at IBM, he had become a born-again Microsoft True Believer and wanted to keep us all happy Windows users.
I had wanted to do something with Linux for quite a while. The idea of a whole new approach to computers, one that allowed someone without formal training to explore the way computers ran, fascinated me. I was much too timid to leap into action at once, risking my one and only machine (2002-era Compaq, Windows XP Home) that contained several years' worth of writing, notes, and comparable trivia. Instead, I did what every ex-academic would do, I read up on the subject.
Linux for Non-GeeksNow here's a point some distro fans might like to take into account: I started my reading with Ubuntu not just because it was well-advertised, but because the books (by Brian Proffitt, Paul G. Sery, Keir Thomas) were readable by humans like me who were starting with absolutely zero computorial vocabulary. These books are scorned by the geek world cognoscenti, I'm sure, but I can bet you they have actually drawn more newbies into the throng than a score of the deep-knowledge textbooks have. You can catch up with the Real Story later -- first you've got to start from scratch.
One evening last year when I carted my Compaq down to my neighbor for its annual cleaning and checkup (he had a satellite internet connection -- at the time the rest of us in our tiny community had dialup that downloaded at a peak rate of 2.4 KiBps!) he announced he was moving away in a few months but assured me I could call him for questions.
That was a real uh-oh. What was I to do? It's 50-plus miles to the nearest city, I'd be at the mercy of a stranger to fix my computer (and see all the personal stuff on it), and it was just at the time when Microsoft was making strenuous noises about abandoning Windows XP very soon. So I took him up on his offer and asked a question.
"What do you know about Linux?" I asked.
"I know how to spell it," he said -- not in an unfriendly way, but it was clear it was not a topic he wished to pursue.
I should have known at the time his reply would become my quick-launch into the world of Linux...
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Am left with only 2 months to complete my undergraduate degree and I've been pondering on what to do with myself after am done. Of course, the first thought that has come to my mind is to get a job in a bank or a telco and live the glossy life of a young corporate in kampala. This thought was banished out of my mind soon as I started temping at one of the the telco's I really wanted to join.
The reality is that most of these corporates get dressed in fancy clothes that they buy for work and drive through traffic in a car that they are still paying for-in order to get to the job they need to pay for the fancy clothes and the car, and the house that they leave vacant all day so that they can afford to live in it. This is the proverbial golden cage, all shinny and glossy from the outside but it's still a mother f***ing cage on the inside.
This is not the life I want. So on to thought number two- hustling!
Sunday, March 28, 2010
So I've been working on this project where am supposed to demonstrate the capabilities of a FOSS network management software. I felt this was a good way to put my newly learnt *Nix skills to use. But so far all its done is given me a headache and shaken my faith in the user friendliness of all *Nix systems. Here goes the sorry tale.....so far!
Firstly..after alot of research into what software I should use, I decided to use VMware because it seemed like the most user friendly out there. After downloading and installing VM workstation (which was a breeze after an hour of reading up on ALOT of ubuntu forums)I noticed that I did not have a serial to use it. So,I asked around and the only one everyone had was of a lower version so I had to uninstall it so that i can downgrade. Uninstalling was so shitty,it took a whole day because I did not know how to(apparently, when i was reading up on how to install the damn thing , i did not figure that i would need to unis tall it so soon so did not bother reading about that! Tip for next time) and neither did most of my colleagues and all this was in between trying to pretend that am actually doing official things as all this was during office time.
After the uninstall(done by the 5th person who tried), I tried to download the lower version...then I noticed that the website actually has a key for one month trial use which is fine with me because I had not intended to keep it after am done with this project.. so I install VM workstation again!!! Then after going through the hassle of installing...I find out my processor cant support that version and I need to downgrade!!!AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!(Another Tip-always check hardware compatibility before installing any kind of software.)
After that, I decide to leave VMware and all its issues alone.I decide to try virtual box since apparently its open source(hence no serial key fiasco!) and is apparently well suited for linux machines.So I download virtual box and try to install that...but apparently the package I had downloaded had some bundles missing! And the installation could not be completed.
At that point the day had come to an end and I was frustrated as hell. So I have put the whole thing on hold for some days untill I find a way to install virtual box on my ubuntu box. As for now,am back to friendly and familiar territory-Windows XP! My love affair with linux is officially on a break!!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Recently, I found out that one of friends is clinically deppressed. I was in awe which quickly progressed to shock then to sadness. Am familiar with deppression(Hell, I was deppressed for most of my teenage life) but for it to get to a state where one needs medication is beyond me. And I always believed it was a hollywood fad anyway. But seemingly it's real.And though am strongly against it,if my friend doesn't take her medication she will not be able to live a normal life! But I still believe that this is not the solution. Am not asking her to wear rose tinted spectacles like I do to evade the harshness of life, am asking her to take the bull by its horns and face it. To face whatever she is going through and conquer it as opposed to sitting in a corner and being deppressed about it.
I believe she needs to take time off and speak to inner demons and make peace with them. Because,I believe that in order to walk through grief, fear, loneliness, despair, confusion and anger without recourse to drugs, alcohol, over-eating, over-sexing, or the endless mind-numbing distractions provided by Western culture, one must become a spiritual warrior.
I further believe that the pay-off for enduring suffering, for soberly embracing the inevitable bouts of emotional pain that life brings, is wisdom and serenity in the face of calamity.
But make no mistake here, the path of the warrior is treacherous and cannot be walked alone. To survive, she must have brothers and sisters-in-arms to carry her when she buckles. When we lived and died in small tribes, this principle of mutually supporting one another through the trials of life was deeply woven into the fabric of the group mind. With the advent of towns and cities we were forced to live with the daily dilemma of being desperately alone and yet desperately needing one another. Which is why we are, by design, always seeking new tribes.
With that in mind,dolls, I humbly offer a simple guideline to evaluate the efficacy of any tribe you might encounter on your path to becoming a spiritual warrior: if they ask for your money or access to your crotch, run away. If they ask for your money, smile unceasingly, never blink, and guarantee to make you a demi-god, running away will not suffice. Change your mailing address and briefly reconsider drugs, alcohol, food, sex and TV. Can I get an Amen?!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
This post is directed at you. I needed a bit of help (understatement-alot of help!) and i tried looking for your messenger ID so i could IM you to no avail. Problem- am trying to set up a virtual network that i can monitor using nagios (that's the really summarized version of it all). Firstly, what virtual tool should i even install on my ubuntu? I was thinking of installing Virtual box but OMG the headache am getting over it. Also, is there a way i can install it offline? Having a reliable internet connection has also become a problem for me. I think that's all for now. Waiting for your reply.(seriously, I really would have preffered to send you an email though.)
For some reason, I believe work and school has really lowered my IQ! Repeateadly doing dull mundane tasks on a daily basis is really mind numbing. The result of all this, i have resorted to plagiarism. But dont worry dolls,am only getting good stuffs like this article about lady Gaga who am currently obsessed with (The shoes she wore to the grammy's were the first picture I posted to this blog!).
Since its release almost two weeks ago, “Telephone” has had over 22 million views on YouTube and has become an Internet sensation. With “Telephone” Gaga, as always, has taken performance to the next level.
In a jet-lagged state, I watched it over and over. Sleep deprivation made the prison dance montages, lesbian make-outs, cigarette sunglasses and images of poisoned diner food interspersed with Americana feel like I was in an alternate universe. Gaga saturates her videos with graphic imagery that is simultaneously repulsive and aesthetically fascinating. There is shock value and beauty and ambiguity all in one 10-minute segment. Classic Gaga.
2009 was Gaga’s year. She blasted to fame, won a slew of Grammys, Teen Choice Awards and MTV Video Music Awards and sold over 8 million albums to boot.
Truth is, her music is pretty unremarkable: If Kelly Clarkson had produced “Poker Face,” it would have been a dud. Most of the awards she wins are for her videos and performances, not her lyrics.
Why do we love her so? She is the whole package — glamour, pop, scandal, fashion and rumor — in one tiny 5-foot-4-inch, 23-year-old form. She walks off airplanes in absurd architectural costumes, creates 10-minute-long high-concept videos laced with powerful Warholian imagery and doesn’t debunk rumors like “does she have a dick?” No one, not even David Bowie, does glamour and celebrity like Gaga.
Lady Gaga proved to be the Steve Jobs and Mark Zuckerberg of pop music all in one. She is a tycoon — redefining glamour, challenging convention and getting up in your face — she has made millions on the back of it. And that’s what makes her such a trailblazer.
The Tisch dropout is an ultra-savvy media manipulator engaged in an elaborate and complex project to re-glamorize the pop star. None of that is readily evident in her actual songs. But that might be part of the point. Regardless of whether you buy her pop-intelligence, you can’t deny that “Gaga” genius in one important sense. Timeless branding of things we don’t usually brand.
From dangling on stage in La Perla lingerie as fake blood gushes from her breast to wearing an orbiting head dress to an award show, every appearance she makes is worthy of the front page. Her image sells, whether you revere it or find it pretentious.
Virgin Mobile, Diet Coke, Wonder Bread, Polaroid and the dating Web site Plentyoffish.com all recognize this; the flagrancy of product placement in “Telephone” is almost distracting. How many other artists have companies vying for them to put arsenic in their Miracle Whip?
Let’s compare Gaga to someone even more successful in 2009: Taylor Swift, who made $18 million last year according to Forbes estimates and was listed by Nielsen SoundScan as the top-selling digital artist in music history. They are a bit different, you might say. Swift is the girl next door. Gaga is your parents’ worst nightmare. Gaga makes music videos with graphic death imagery. Swift sings songs about teen love and being “15.”
Parents love Swift because she spews morals they deem good for their daughters. They see her as a responsible big sister. The most controversial thing she did last year was host “Saturday Night Live” (and she was amazing). The least controversial thing Gaga did was meet the Queen of England in a red leather dress.
Admittedly, the pop stars have some similarities. Like Gaga’s music, the world could do without Swift’s. Swift’s career is based on a particular image and branding — tapping into the tween scene in a way that would make Britney circa 1997 drool. She has become the celebrity face of l.e.i jeans and Wal-Mart, and many companies are vying for her as well.
But Swift’s brand is a ticking time bomb. As we know all too well from the Spears, Aguilera, Moore, Simpson battle of the 90s, the girl next-door image has an expiration date. She turns 21 this December. Soon America will not buy into lyrics like “she’s cheer captain and I’m on the bleachers.” As precedent shows, she will either fade into obscurity or have to rebrand herself as a young sexually empowered woman, singing songs like “Dirrty” or “I’m a Slave 4 U,” struggling to find a new niche.
Gaga will not face the perils of musical puberty. As far as we are concerned, Gaga doesn’t have an age, sex or “innocent” thought in her body. Her burlesque film neon/noir videos might not be everyone’s cup of tea, but we have never seen anything like her. She is a novelty and will continue to be controversial, shocking us with images we seldom face in mainstream culture, like Butch lesbians and non-heteronormative sexuality. And power to her.
As Gaga said in an interview with Ellen DeGeneres, her music and performance is “all about letting people who don’t fit in know that someone out there is fine with who they are.” I guess America is a country of freaks then, and it is Gaga’s genius for getting us to embrace it — while making millions in the process.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
From one of my favorite writers,Chuck Lorre.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
So everyday in the morning when i get to work, I have a ritual. Take a cup of hot coffee concetrate( Don't judge, if you have to start work at 7 am you would be seriously hooked as well!) Go through all my mail;outlook,yahoo,facebook. Check my twitter for updates from the people/organisations that i follow (Twitter is the shits!!)And finally go through my favourite sites(Fmylife,postsecret,textsfromlastnight,oddee)so i dont doze off as i carry on with this mundane shit i call work.
And guess what i find today, a foosball(foosball being the only football I can stand!LOL) table which has a ugandan character!! And it's not just any table, its an EVIL VS GOOD table just so you can have a kick(no pun intended) kicking(now am starting to rhyme!) the evil guys' asses! So, guess on which team the Ugandan was playing and which ugandan he is!! You are all gonna die when i tell you. It is our very own Idi Amin Dada!! And ofcourse he's on the evil team in between Hitler and Jack the Ripper! The actual line up for both teams is;On the team of Evil XI we have: Pot, Lucifer, Calgula, Ripper (as in Jack), Impaler (as in Vlad the), Hitler, Macbeth (as in Lady), Hyde, Klebb (as in Rosa), Amin, Catcher (as in the Child). Playing for Good XI we have: Claus (as in Santa), More (as in Sir Thomas), Moore (as in Bobby), Gordon (as in Flash), Robin (as in Christopher),God, Assisi, Jekyll, Poppins, Teresa, M.K. Gandhi.Only 20 of these were made and they retail for a whopping 14,500 pounds!! Am already imagining Amin legging it with Gandhi or even God!! Cool stuff! If I could afford it,I'd seriously buy this table. Is it me or there is seriously no better way to commemorate this dude?!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
I just stumbled upon a site that all you linux newbies (am sure even advanced users) will love. It has a good number of articles,tutorials and various resources to get you up and running with Linux. It has 3 homes;for a desktop user,a windows admin and a Linux admin.I am especially loving the forum. It has been abit hard for me to follow or even contribute to most of the Linux forums I have found because most people assume that you are already an advanced user but this one caters to the Linux babies like me. Check it out here.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
I just wanted to share one of my favorite pieces from one of my favourite fashionistas with you and would love to hear what you all think.
I personally love all of her pieces because I would actually wear every single one which is important, but I think this khaki and white hand-painted cotton dress is probably my #1 fav.
I love the fact that the dress is basic and simple but then it has that fun, edgy and sexy look to it! And, I'd die for that cow horn and porcupine necklace.You can check out more of her stuff here.
Personally, I own just a skirt from her collection which was given to me by a model friend of mine(Annet,luv you doll!). But I'd love to get more of her stuff.
Stella, if you ever read this. I just can't wait for you to open your own store. I think your stuff is phenomenal and you are a phenomenal woman.
Keep on being FIERCE!!!
Suffering from mild depression at the moment so i have nothing witty or funny to write.
Love is when you dare to reveal yourself fully. I dared, I was torn to shreds, now am hurt. But I believe this too shall pass. Either to make us stronger or to make me stronger.
For now i can't stop listening to this song by leonard Cohen.
I heard there was a secret chord
that david played and it pleased the lord
but you don't really care for music, do you
well it goes like this the fourth, the fifth
the minor fall and the major lift
the baffled king composing hallelujah
well your faith was strong but you needed proof
you saw her bathing on the roof
her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
she tied you to her kitchen chair
she broke your throne and she cut your hair
and from your lips she drew the hallelujah
baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and i've walked this floor
I used to live alone before i knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
but love is not a victory march
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah
well there was a time when you let me know
what's really going on below
but now you never show that to me do you
but remember when i moved in you
and the holy dove was moving too
and every breath we drew was hallelujah
well, maybe there's a god above
but all i've ever learned from love
was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
it's not a cry that you hear at night
it's not somebody who's seen the light
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah
Monday, March 1, 2010
I've always wondered what the big deal is about having a car. In most cases, the first purchase after most people get a job is a car. Funnier still is that fact that most girls (the ones i know anyway) would never dare to date a guy who doesn't have a car! This has always left me puzzled till ofcourse the beginning of this year, when I joined the reat of the crazy Ugandan car wanting population .But dont judge me yet, i dont want the said car as a symbol of social status(though my inner diva is blushing at this gross misrepresentation!) or whatever else you might be thinking. I am a pretty down to earth babe, I can jump on a boda boda in broad daylight, hop into a taxi, anything transportwise i can do( I draw the line at bicycles!).
But lately, this whole helmet wearing business has just turned my once lovely boda boda experience in a nightmare. And for some reason, I find it hard to sit in a taxi for more than 10 minutes!(even just the thought makes me nauseous!)so the solution to my problems is evidently a car.And am not picky. Am not looking for a fancy car (right!) but any car as long as it works. Even the tiniest starlet would make me happy.
Unfortunately for me, I don't have the money to buy even the most basic of cars and even i could save my meagre earnings(which i can't) It would take me atleast 2 years(hoping inflation is not affecting car prices,which it is). So what does a 21year old girl in my situation do? Go off to find the next available rich man's bed to hop into?(I will not deny that this thought has crossed my mind)
Truly,I dont know what am going to do to get this car. But i believe that what the mind can conceive,the body can achieve. So now am off to see how am going to come up with the 7 million required to buy that little car in picture.
Wish me luck dolls(seriously!)
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Since this is essentially a blog about my progress in my IT career,I will give a report occassionally about my progress IT wise. This way i can be forced to actually do stuff to improve.
Attending the LUG meeting actually motivated me to start using Linux and since then I have downloaded an Image of Karmic Koala(Latest stable version of Ubuntu)to burn and install on my baby(aka my laptop) But am still debating on wether to install virtual machine instead and run Linux on one of the virtual machines. This way i kill birds with one stone;I learn Linux and get familiar with Virtualization.
Oh well, that will be decided upon soon as i have to have Linux on my baby by the end of the week.
Also, I bought a book- Introduction to Linux a Beginner's Guide by Kamil Shappa. And so far its been a really good read. Am down 2 chapters already. Am sort of excited by this whole Linux thing, cant wait to install LAMP server already so I can show off to my windows using group mates.
Unfortunately, the progress report posts shall definitely be the most boring. But it cant be helped, they are the reason am blogging in the first place. For all ye chick geeks out there, here's an article to inspire.
Friday, February 26, 2010
Am super excited!!!! Just got called by a telco in town for an interview!!! Cool beans,huh?! It's for a really cool post,So to imagine that i was just experimenting is incredibly funny. I applied for it to see how far the little experince i have, could get me. I waited for about a week and when noone had called me,i gave up on it entirely. And today while am at work(amazingly enough, i work at a telco already) I get called to go for an interview. Am going to do abit of reading up and then go. Interview's tommorrow at 10.00am(wonder what i'll wear!!).
My job at the moment is nice enough though and I have no thoughts about leaving it unless am given an earth shattering offer(lets not get too ahead of ourselves here!!) but it will be nice to see what else is out there.
So dolls, keep your fingers(and your tiny weeny toes!!)crossed for me!!!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Me and my girls are having an argument about how far you can go with submissiveness. The bar has beeen placed at washing your man's underwear(man being someone you are having a seriously committed relationship with..not a fuck buddy!) So far, the traditionalists are saying that you have to do whatever it takes to keep your man including doing odd things such as kneeling,washing underwear,saying thank you for sex...e.t.c
The modern independent girls are saying no way hose...never in their right minds would they bend so low for any man and if he even dared to ask for such things...then he can go cheat for all they care ( God riddance to bad rubbish anyway!!).
Me, I dont know..I think their is a level of bending low i can go to..but not to keep you..just to show my dedication and love for you. But washing underwear...Hell NO!!!!!
What say you dolls??
Thursday, February 18, 2010
So tomorrow, am atteding my very first Linux User's Group. One of my mentors( Khalid) suggested I learn as much as possible about open source software and he recommended i start with linux. He also suggested i join this group so i can meet people who are already experts in the field.
Am a little bit scared though. I dont want to come off as a ditsy blonde in the meeting.(silently thanking God for all that Linux knowledge already gained from sheer interest) I am what you call a beginner at Linux. I can install it, use most of the applications in the GUI and very few commands(I mean like 3) in the command shell.
Hope the geeks don't eat me alive. Wish me luck Dolls.
Never thought I'd ever do this...but here i am...publishing my thoughts to the world(Gasp!!!!)
Oh well. Long story short, I am at the very beginning of my career(Am hoping to stick with this...having started at secretary...then baker..businesswoman...computer engineer...software developer..database administrator!!! Damn ..am a versatile woman!) Anyho..now i've finally decided that i want to be a network and security manager.
And i need some sort of motivation..and writing here is going to be some ort of reporting on what i do to head in this very...i dont know what to call it yet..path!!
So dolls, you're gonna be my guides, my critics..my audience...and let's see where this path shall lead.
Love you dolls (hope someone other than my direct friends and family reads this some day)